if you have noticed this is a first nations website.
intended for the use of first nations peoples.
from a personal point of view i come to this website in hopes of visiting with other first nations peoples.
for some reason or another non natives do come to this website, perhaps out of interest in native life or perhaps in hopes of stirring up trouble.
if i may ask what is your interest in being here on first nations?
a bit long-winded (you surely expect this by now, eh?):
Ah, this is the first reply I have read today after just checking my private messages here. One message maker made a private post to me especially about this topic (and I suggested he post it here--again, *before* I read this thread!)! How interesting!
He/she suggested some ideas that i agree with, like the one about how we 'euros' (not her/his word) are inspired by openings (i'm rewriting a bit now) in thinking through things that aren't comprehended (largely) by our fellow peoples of euro descent. Largely anyway. If I want to have discussions like i have gotten in here, I see that i've got to go academic and learn all the academic jargon. Really. I.e. cybernetics or symbiotics (ooooo--eeeeeeek--argggggh). Or, I've got to talk to/with anarchists (which I do from time to time; tho so many seem to be so out for blood and don't seem to see the value of escaping what looks to me like "always war" mind-set). And the anarchist, especially the post-left variety, do have some deep, inspiring ideas. Yet i think they're missing major things--such as many principle anarchist thinkers who assume that first nations peoples don't have anything serious to contribute to their thought. (i could go on, but i'll hold myself back!)
Yet the spirit of *this* forum, unlike so many, has allowed "us" to have laid-back-types of conversations--all without paying (not the case for salon.com), and all without the usual knee-jerk anger reflections so many of us experience in online forums! And that is a wonderful gift to experience.
This alone moves me to want to inspire those with the power to "kick me out" --to think again. What potential there is here. What if we saw the value of seeking to understand each other, *while* not allowing ourselves to be psychologically beaten (and the other tricks which true trouble makers may seek to bring to such a forum as this).
Perhaps though you feel that I am being too forward too much, and that this is "chasing" others away? That this is somehow being disrespectful. Is saying what I think too much disrespectful in your culture? It seems to me that speaking our truths is extremely important--even if we aren't readily understood! Yet perhaps this is not the forum for such vision?
And, is it only a question of race, that i am not a first nations person? After all, you didn't bring this up until recently....
What are you really seeking to get at? Are you referring to my post involving the winkte/two-spirit/gay native site? Or my speaking my feelings about your handling of a poster (whom I don't know) which I think you missed some things about? Or your feeling overwhelmed by trying to decipher/understand my postings? (you don't have to read them do you?) Or?
Maybe you think I have spent too much time working hard to *say my peice*? Every once in awhile I do have time on my hands and I try to put it into places where I think my ideas, experiences, and feelings will be heard.
So, what's the bottom line for me? (to be more succinct; *not* something i'm good at!)
I want to inspire and be inspired by my fellow human beings (to carry on efforts of principled resistance consciousness--to continue to develop serious paradigms/awareness beyond the pitfalls of colonization and its seemingly myriad traps---on *all* sides of Mom Earth; i want to promote *evolution* of mind-set away from the "everyday" war of so-called "civilization"). I want to engage in thorough thoughtfulness with my fellow human beings; thoughtfulness which includes "critical thinking" about the perceptional realities which can have a way of sneaking past the best of our efforts to be aware; i want to complement efforts to *think things through*.
But i am coming at all of this from a separated space. You do not know me, no one here knows me. Perhaps it would be good to meet, someday. i look forward to it! i am a "gypsy" nomad and i move all over the u.s. and etc. (still, after too many years).
In my separation i am a bit crazy. After all, apparently all around me human beings are acquiescing to being working stiffs and accepting their "fate" of dreams caught on the rough rocks of imposed reality. i have found ways to escape such ends, so far. And i live it! i have found ways through the proverbial cracks!
With all of this in mind, plus my life experiences (at my young age of 40!), i feel strongly that i have many gifts. But some people fear such things. They want what they are used to. Maybe this is the way humanity will go, and the armageddon (aka "the worst") they seem so committed to will happen. Yet my radical life experiences lead me to see that *this does not have to be*!
And so i walk in here singing my songs and daring to speak. And i do it with honors to others who continue to dare. Should i name them? A few include first nations people.
Of course, you and 'your' people can choose to reduce my broad potential input to merely another "white man" trickster who cannot be trusted, forever. That is your choice. I can see why many cannot rise beyond this categorically; yet i say it's folly. "We" would do better to step back from our hysterical fears and see the unwanted realities---that war- mindset/rigidized fear/severe alienation is the true enemy, not people, not human beings!
i am so deeply inspired by aboriginal peoples' articulations of dissent and alternative seeing! Yet i do not merely consume such as another empty spectacle (as my still deeply colonized brethren (i am not saying i'm "no longer" colonized--i have blindspots like anyone!)). i actually translate insights and depth consciousness i find here (and in our open-ended (!) conversations) into my "project" of claiming to *be in solidarity with informal humanity*. This project is an "art" project. i am "arting myself"; i am not a "warrior" but an "orrior" committed to creative, radical nonviolence. This is 'troublesome' to those who do not really want to move beyond (perhaps) what they are used to and poisoned with.
Perhaps you/others reading this would like to hear more about some of these things i speak of and share your feelings and etc.? i would LOVE such feedback, even if it ain't nice. How about this:
(tell me if that link works; you might have to reload the page a few times to get it to work). You will see, there, several "crazy" interactions i have been engaged in--across the u.s.a.--including one about a pow-wow i had the nerve/foolishness to interact with.
I cannot help but to be a human being myself. (This includes my winkte/'two spirit' sides!) CERTAINLY i do not have "all the truth" on "my side" (whatever that is). i could use humanity (can't we all!). And such humanity ain't going to be found readily. So i see that i am going to need to "shove off" from "the banks of the river" (as Hopi elders are counseling, apparently) and go into the middle of the heavy current of what is going down now--and *celebrate* with whomever i find myself swimming with.
i am like my fellow brothers/sisters who are flailing and remaining barely afloat in this world. i will not deny this. i want sanity. Why should i have to conform to "nice" fakery? What is life if we cannot be ourselves?
Isn't it *fresh air* to have others around who *dare* to speak from their albeit imperfect hearts---even if the language is not "easy" to "understand" (using contemporary narrow mindedness, or paradigms which block out whole aspects of creative being, i.e. as the radical psychiatrist R.D. Laing once said basically: "As domains of experience become more and more estranged from us, it will take greater and greater open-mindedness to conceive of their existence."--from _The Politics of Experience_).
Well, i've blathered on for quite some length, eh? This is only a reflection of how deeply i allow your challenge, however slight, to touch me. And yes, I'm feeling threatened by your post; I'm figuring that you have already made your mind up and that you weild the power (?) to kick me/have me kicked out of here-----at a time when I have presented an articulate challenge to some of your apparent beliefs (i.e. with a poster in a thread that is old; do you know what i am speaking of?).
I feel that my presence here is a good thing--tho certainly imperfect (and wanting input!); I do not intend to superficially "stir up trouble" nor do I intend to '.... with' you/anyone else.
i would like to be seen as one who walks with beaten-down peoples--all peoples--all human beings--in a way where we begin to see our similarities more than our differences! But some people do not want these things to happen, or fear such developments. They seem to be very afraid of unknowns. Russell Means talked about this to extents in his book _Where White Men Fear To Tread_.
Why is it that you must judge me based on my not being a descendant (as far as I know) of the first nations of this side of Mom Earth? Why not judge me based on the merit of my ideas, or the merit of different peoples' intuitions?
But if you (and those who control this forum) cannot deal with this, I will leave. What good is it to put energy where people cannot allow themselve to hear, or even try?